As I was starting this blog, a
friend requested that I keep true to the “facts of life” – I
think he meant more along the lines of the standards of living in
some of the places that the Peace Corps goes – but not all “facts
of life” are physical, as I have learned since my graduation in
December.
Serving in the Peace Corps had been
a dream of mine since I was in middle school – I fantasized
about a life filled with adventure, using another language (or two, or three…) and using my skills and expertise to do whatever I
could to make the world a better place. My plan was to achieve that dream right after graduation. However, life or God or the
cosmos, or whoever you want to believe, had other plans - plans I
didn’t realize what were being set into motion at the time.
One random day, my friend, Ian, from Engineers Without Borders (EWB),
told me about a guest speaker that was coming to campus from the
Chicago chapter of EWB, saying that this speaker would be VERY
informative and useful for my serving with Peace Corps. I was
interested in going, but, as the day came closer, school work was
piling up, and with the end of the semester looming over us, I was
more concerned about graduating than about a speaker. The day of the
meeting I was working in our senior design lab when Ian reminded me about the meeting. I tried convincing him that
I was too busy to go; I was interested but needed to get my stuff
done “so I could graduate”. He thought this was a BS response,
so proceeded to try to persuade me to go to the meeting. We
eventually got to the point where we were literally arguing
about whether or not I should go to this meeting. (Something along
the lines of: Ian-“But this is what you want to do with your
life!”; Me-“ But I can’t do it if I don’t graduate!”)
My own stubbornness was almost my
demise. Luckily for me, Ian was equally as stubborn, and I was all
out of excuses.Right before leaving he turned to
say
“Jessi, I really think you should go to this. This guy has
been everywhere and seen everything. He could really help you with
anything you need for the Peace Corps. We are going to have a
business meeting first then he is going to speak, you should really
come up.” And with that he left.
I wrestled with myself for a good
ten minutes or so, watching the clock tick closer to the meeting time. I pondered sitting in the meeting, listening to
what I was assuming to be a middle-aged man expound upon his
life-experience of projects in other countries. It could be hit or
miss – sometimes these presentations are really interesting,
sometimes they are as dry as the homework I was working on. Did I
really need more of that in my day? I eventually concluded that, if
anything, it would be a good excuse to take a break from my homework. Besides, who knew? Maybe Ian would be right and maybe it would be
worthwhile for me – there was only one way to find out...
There are so many decisions that I have made in life that make me wonder
where I would be, or what my life would be like if I had chosen
something else. The decision to actually listen to Ian and go to the
damn meeting is one of those decisions. I have moments now where I
look back and fear that this is all just a dream and I DIDN’T go to
the meeting and I am still waiting for my life to become what I
wanted it to be. The lesson I was about to learn wasn’t that Ian
is always right (sorry Ian!), but that you never know when an opportunity will come along to blow your sails in the direction of the life waiting for you.
I went into the room and sat in the
corner by the door, away from everyone, ready to dodge out in case I
felt the need to continue working on my school work (when I look back
on this I roll my eyes at myself). The speaker, Frank, was very
experienced with working in different communities world-wide, and was
much younger than I expected. His presentation was not only
refreshing, but also very inspiring – if this guy, who isn’t that
much older than us, can do so much, what can we do? What can I do? I
just listened to him and absorbed everything I could; the information he was sharing was definitely useful for what I wanted to do. I also realized that what he was doing was very
much in line with what I wanted to do with my life - maybe Peace Corps wasn't the only answer? My stubborn side
hated to admit it, but Ian was definitely right about me attending this.
Toward the end of the meeting, as
the group was asking questions, and as I was realizing that I had
been on the losing side of an argument with Ian, Ian decided to
inform everyone - “By the way, that is Jessica in the corner. She
is here because she is planning to go into the Peace Corps and wanted
to learn about volunteering and working in communities in other
countries.” This is, again, another moment that makes me wonder
what would be different in my life if this HADN’T happened. I
hated all the sudden, unexpected attention at the time, but this also
had a major effect on my life plans and to Ian I am extremely
grateful.
This announcement generated a lot of
buzz among my peers and after the meeting one of the members came up
to talk to me:
Ethan – So when are you going?
Me – I don’t know but it won’t be for at least a year.
Me – I don’t know but it won’t be for at least a year.
Ethan – Really? What are you
going to do between graduation and then?
Me – I don’t know, look for something short-term? I applied for AmeriCorps, and we will see what else comes up; maybe an internship or something short-term
Me – I don’t know, look for something short-term? I applied for AmeriCorps, and we will see what else comes up; maybe an internship or something short-term
Ethan – Well, I know the
organization that I had internships with in Chicago is hiring a data
analyst for 3-4 months, would you be interested?
Me – That could be a definite possibility. Can you give me their information?
Me – That could be a definite possibility. Can you give me their information?
After graduation I got in touch with
the organization and set up an interview. During the interview they
informed me that they were also hiring an energy auditor, which would
be a full-time, permanent position and they would ask me some
questions for that opening. Within a few weeks of the interview I
received an offer for the energy auditor position - this is where
dealing with the internal “facts of life” comes in. If I were to
accept the position, it would mean putting off the Peace Corps and
moving to Chicago – something I had NOT been mentally preparing
for. I had to decide between taking a job that felt so right in so
many ways (sometimes you just know), or waiting for one of my biggest
dreams to come true. There were sleepless nights. There were tears.
There were arguments with my parents. There was the harsh reality of
$40,000 of student debt that I would have to start paying off in a few months. If I
joined the Peace Corps, that debt could be deferred, but when would I
actually join? How long would I want that to follow me around for? How would I even make payments before serving?
The debt felt so restraining. Plus, in reality, this job just seemed
WAY too fitting for me to pass up and Peace Corps wasn’t going the
way I had hoped (that will be another post, I promise). Sometimes
you just get a gut feeling about something in life, and this was one
of those times. I opted for the energy auditor position and on March
1st, I moved from Milwaukee to the windy city.
I love my job. They say that if you
love what you do, you never work a day in your life, and that is
EXACTLY how I feel. Yes, that might change as time goes on, but I get
so much joy out of what I do. We go to people’s homes, apartment
buildings, et cetra and give them suggestions on improving their
energy usage. If it is applicable, we also help them with rebates and
low interest loans to help pay for some of the suggestions. Some of
our clients are low to moderate income, and they are SOOO happy for
us to come and help them. The needs of some of these people are very
real, and their pure joy at hearing how we can help them is
unbelievable. I had a bit of an epiphany the other day as I was
standing on the roof of a building in Uptown: the life I am living
right now, here in the city, is EXACTLY what I wanted, I just didn’t
realize it. I wanted to help people, I wanted to go on adventures
(its Chicago – everyday is an adventure!), I wanted to use my
skills for something good and I am even learning Spanish and
Polish/Slovak. The only thing that isn’t true right now is that I
am not living in another country – but, who knows? That might be
yet to come…
Until then, I have decided to join
the Chicagoland Professional Chapter of EWB and am extremely excited
to see how and what I can contribute to their projects –maybe I
will get my travel fix there or achieve some of the other dreams that
I had for Peace Corps. And yes, this is also the same chapter that
Frank, the speaker that visited my campus back in December, is a part
of - it’s kind of funny how life twirls you around and drops you
off so close to what started everything.
As for my future, I don't know what it holds, but if it’s anything like the past few months, it
should be a whirl wind of exciting adventures as I venture into the
life that has been awaiting me. I am so excited to see where it leads!
And if it wasn’t clear enough
already, special thanks to: Ethan for telling me about the open
position in Chicago; Frank for coming to Platteville that weekend in December –
I don’t know what your side of the story was from that weekend, but
no matter how simple or complicated it was, I am happy you came; and
finally Ian, a HUGE thank you for not giving up on me and for calling
me out on my lame excuses, I didn’t have many people doing that in
my life and I am happy you did – and I’ll say it again, you were
right (at least for this one…).
Thank you.